It feels like there's this inner demon who's been living in me forever and now it wants to come out. I mean now, off all the times it could. So inconvient. It's chewing away at my skin, desperately trying to come out. He's been waiting for his time, waiting for the right time to emerge. He feels he must come out now.

And he's not much of a happy guy either. He wants to control me, take over my body, do things with it that I would never do normally. And sometimes he gets real close to coming out. Someone or something provokes him to chew away harder and harder, to get out of me no matter what.

But what does he want from me? Revenge? Revenge on what? Who did what to him? Why does he need to come out? What the hell happened?

And damn it hurts. He's itching for a fight. With anyone. And he's starting to piss me off. But because I can hold him in at all, that proves to me that I am stronger than him. Should I try to kill him or let him go? Or should I just let him keep struggling?

Time will tell.